Saturday, May 14, 2011
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Pity All Of Us.
Two things that have been clouding my mind tonight are;
(a) That the entertainment world really sucks.
(b) God, I really pity Ariel Peterpan, Luna Maya and Cut Tari. I mean, yeah, they are definitely wrong but people please don't condemn much simply because they have their own part of penalization just between them and The One And Only. Why don't we just pray to avoid that from happening to any of us. Also pray that they will repent. Better, isn't it?
Accepting it as a mere gossip at first, how I wish this news wasn't true. It is so shameful it has happened and the impact is too big in various perspectives. I am ashamed by the spreading of the videos. We, humans, are really just actors and actresses of the world stage, aren't we? But we have control. Use it correctly.
I got to sleep.
(a) That the entertainment world really sucks.
(b) God, I really pity Ariel Peterpan, Luna Maya and Cut Tari. I mean, yeah, they are definitely wrong but people please don't condemn much simply because they have their own part of penalization just between them and The One And Only. Why don't we just pray to avoid that from happening to any of us. Also pray that they will repent. Better, isn't it?
Accepting it as a mere gossip at first, how I wish this news wasn't true. It is so shameful it has happened and the impact is too big in various perspectives. I am ashamed by the spreading of the videos. We, humans, are really just actors and actresses of the world stage, aren't we? But we have control. Use it correctly.
I got to sleep.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Guilt That Comes Together
Dear D,
Right after coming back from Uptown Shah Alam for dinner, Mimim urged me to drive her to the place where she saw a little white kitten before we headed dining earlier. Reaching there, indeed the same kitten still remained at the same spot as if it hadn't moved at all since then. Mimim asked me whether she could pick it up back home. Well, that is where guilt came into myself as I was counting of its pros and cons of bringing that little poor thing home.
Well D, it's either bringing it home or not bringing it home, I do think in both ways it comes with the good & the bad. So, if it is chosen to bring it home, I believe sooner or later, she would abandon it because Mimim stays in the hostel - where having pets is absolutely not allowed. Later, she'd leave it under my care. Which; I refused to because I live in with my other flatmates thus certain guidelines should be given a damn on. Moreover, I already have 2 cats whom my bf takes care of them on my behalf.
Whereas not to bring it home, invites uneasiness towards Mimim and also a bit part of me because leaving it out there surrounded by the cold night - just imagine! - at night, if the blankets of ours aren't covering our feet, we'd be trembling in cold. What more of a kitten! But then, to decide taking part of which is one is rather hard. Guilt comes when we are to be or not to be.
Since Mimim couldn't control her emotion, weeping while I gave her a reasonable explanation, so my suggestion was that to feed the kitten there while we both could and at least, tonight its stomach was saved. Tomorrow, we'll look out for it again to feed it.
Out of that decision of mine, I do believe that kitten has its mommy which is called 'Kiah' by guards of my residence and because Kiah is a white adult cat so no doubt that kitten is hers. And, to be growing that a little big of a kitten, it must be breastfed by Kiah or else by now, it might be dying or were really thin and small.
The thing is, any stray cats which me or my siblings bump into will come in a package of this huge guilt. Because the responsibility is huge to raise a kitten. Even I was kind of giving up in taking care of Minyu and Salem. But it has its own reasons why. If only I own my own house, kittens I've found on the streets will be my personal belongings. But what more could be done, I'm helpless to provide a shelter of those stray cats. Poor thing!
I dream of building up cats and dogs' shelter if I were a millionaire.
or at least if I have extra money.
Remember, stray cats & dogs - they also have souls.
Like us.
The pain might just feel the same.
Right after coming back from Uptown Shah Alam for dinner, Mimim urged me to drive her to the place where she saw a little white kitten before we headed dining earlier. Reaching there, indeed the same kitten still remained at the same spot as if it hadn't moved at all since then. Mimim asked me whether she could pick it up back home. Well, that is where guilt came into myself as I was counting of its pros and cons of bringing that little poor thing home.
Well D, it's either bringing it home or not bringing it home, I do think in both ways it comes with the good & the bad. So, if it is chosen to bring it home, I believe sooner or later, she would abandon it because Mimim stays in the hostel - where having pets is absolutely not allowed. Later, she'd leave it under my care. Which; I refused to because I live in with my other flatmates thus certain guidelines should be given a damn on. Moreover, I already have 2 cats whom my bf takes care of them on my behalf.
Whereas not to bring it home, invites uneasiness towards Mimim and also a bit part of me because leaving it out there surrounded by the cold night - just imagine! - at night, if the blankets of ours aren't covering our feet, we'd be trembling in cold. What more of a kitten! But then, to decide taking part of which is one is rather hard. Guilt comes when we are to be or not to be.
Since Mimim couldn't control her emotion, weeping while I gave her a reasonable explanation, so my suggestion was that to feed the kitten there while we both could and at least, tonight its stomach was saved. Tomorrow, we'll look out for it again to feed it.
Out of that decision of mine, I do believe that kitten has its mommy which is called 'Kiah' by guards of my residence and because Kiah is a white adult cat so no doubt that kitten is hers. And, to be growing that a little big of a kitten, it must be breastfed by Kiah or else by now, it might be dying or were really thin and small.
The thing is, any stray cats which me or my siblings bump into will come in a package of this huge guilt. Because the responsibility is huge to raise a kitten. Even I was kind of giving up in taking care of Minyu and Salem. But it has its own reasons why. If only I own my own house, kittens I've found on the streets will be my personal belongings. But what more could be done, I'm helpless to provide a shelter of those stray cats. Poor thing!
I dream of building up cats and dogs' shelter if I were a millionaire.
or at least if I have extra money.
Remember, stray cats & dogs - they also have souls.
Like us.
The pain might just feel the same.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Nice Weekend
D.
Grateful all the way to Him because lately my life has been so 'alive'! Happiness in which ignited smiley face to be worn on my face all the time! :)
The weekend started awesomely with a visit from Mimi. We had fun today and more fun tomorrow as mom and Nida will be joining us and it'd be a terrific weekend! Hee!
Love is felt to engulf me a lot!
Indeed, I'm happyyy!
Grateful all the way to Him because lately my life has been so 'alive'! Happiness in which ignited smiley face to be worn on my face all the time! :)
The weekend started awesomely with a visit from Mimi. We had fun today and more fun tomorrow as mom and Nida will be joining us and it'd be a terrific weekend! Hee!
Love is felt to engulf me a lot!
Indeed, I'm happyyy!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Exchanging Partners
It is mostly the sad feeling tonight, Diary.
I am questioned hardly by such answerable questions in my head about guys in general and love, specifically.
In a love relationship, two persons of different sexes fall in love with each other with a quest that they both actually have a lot in common. But at the middle, when the time gets longer, although it is quite fit to say the longer they know the more things regarding him/her that they'll know within each other; renders it to be insanely possible because there suddenly exists misunderstandings, uncommon things/interests are created making almost all stuffs turned as sour as sour plum.
The mostly common case is when there suddenly exists a whole new character into that relationship being as an obstacle to the smoothness beforehand. But I admit it is not wholly the fault of that new character that just comes into stage, it is just basically the entire fault of whom get the situation hot for a moment that, that one should be stoned to death, if emotionally driven.
So, what do men want really? They have what they have gained with so much efforts previously but then they just wasted it as if nothing in memories is ever valuable to them. Because that other new character is beautiful, makes them think twice of any bizarre chances that might be coming into life once in a lifetime. The possibility in getting the chance is undeniably risky but still men would weigh its pros and cons in order to get hold of that new, beautiful character. For their own satisfaction.
I am intrigued by such notion that men can actually have to be naughty once in a while but why can women? (I mean, why can't I...? :p)
Seriously I did actually give the leeway for him to go for her. But the hurt I expected to hold would be so painful, I know. So I don't want to let anything go for I believe 87% of his 'being naughty' is temporary while I'll be getting the permanent one.
Lastly, the truth is, I'm getting tired of this.
I didn't give a damn just now.
Sleep tight, D. Night night.
I am questioned hardly by such answerable questions in my head about guys in general and love, specifically.
In a love relationship, two persons of different sexes fall in love with each other with a quest that they both actually have a lot in common. But at the middle, when the time gets longer, although it is quite fit to say the longer they know the more things regarding him/her that they'll know within each other; renders it to be insanely possible because there suddenly exists misunderstandings, uncommon things/interests are created making almost all stuffs turned as sour as sour plum.
The mostly common case is when there suddenly exists a whole new character into that relationship being as an obstacle to the smoothness beforehand. But I admit it is not wholly the fault of that new character that just comes into stage, it is just basically the entire fault of whom get the situation hot for a moment that, that one should be stoned to death, if emotionally driven.
So, what do men want really? They have what they have gained with so much efforts previously but then they just wasted it as if nothing in memories is ever valuable to them. Because that other new character is beautiful, makes them think twice of any bizarre chances that might be coming into life once in a lifetime. The possibility in getting the chance is undeniably risky but still men would weigh its pros and cons in order to get hold of that new, beautiful character. For their own satisfaction.
I am intrigued by such notion that men can actually have to be naughty once in a while but why can women? (I mean, why can't I...? :p)
Seriously I did actually give the leeway for him to go for her. But the hurt I expected to hold would be so painful, I know. So I don't want to let anything go for I believe 87% of his 'being naughty' is temporary while I'll be getting the permanent one.
Lastly, the truth is, I'm getting tired of this.
I didn't give a damn just now.
Sleep tight, D. Night night.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Getting Fat, me.
Hi Little Diary,
How are you? (Heheheh!)
Well Diary, I just want to share with you that I think over time, I'm gaining weight! Or the rude way of saying it is I'm getting fat! I put myself to tests every now and then and obviously the fact is indeed true. For examples, when I sit on the toilet bowl, I couldn't see any white line beside both my feet. That's first. Secondly, when I wear skinny jeans, the above of my knees both have this extra baggage which when I pinched it, it has almost about a grasp, wo! Luckily, it still fits me. Haha! And whenever I sit and drive, I could see as if err a big snake on the chair. lol! I'm not that happy for this but I could say my life has been happier since I allowed myself to eat a lot. At least, I don't have to visit Klang Hospital that often for broken stomach. *wink wink*
Just really hope I can make my heart becoming really really fat too. So that, it'll be numb, dumb, and a bum!
I need to make myself busy. I'm going to take that job.
Rest to sleep now, D.
How are you? (Heheheh!)
Well Diary, I just want to share with you that I think over time, I'm gaining weight! Or the rude way of saying it is I'm getting fat! I put myself to tests every now and then and obviously the fact is indeed true. For examples, when I sit on the toilet bowl, I couldn't see any white line beside both my feet. That's first. Secondly, when I wear skinny jeans, the above of my knees both have this extra baggage which when I pinched it, it has almost about a grasp, wo! Luckily, it still fits me. Haha! And whenever I sit and drive, I could see as if err a big snake on the chair. lol! I'm not that happy for this but I could say my life has been happier since I allowed myself to eat a lot. At least, I don't have to visit Klang Hospital that often for broken stomach. *wink wink*
Just really hope I can make my heart becoming really really fat too. So that, it'll be numb, dumb, and a bum!
I need to make myself busy. I'm going to take that job.
Rest to sleep now, D.
Monday, May 31, 2010
The Illiterate Me
Diary.
This is just a teaser for my upcoming literature project. An image of a very scratch idea.
Hm, well... That's enough. Think I should create a monstrous character to fight with the angel but, how come the sequence of a story has to be always like that? So sick of it! Will brainstorm that later.
For the time being, that above description really clouds my mind. Sometimes, it makes me think that life is beautiful.
This is just a teaser for my upcoming literature project. An image of a very scratch idea.
She has a full smile; a nice built-in nose; shiny skins with little pimples; an invisible two-row of eyebrows - nicer if she applies a fair amount of black eyebrow colour; her eyes are restless, extended but shining with a lustre exuding smooth and pleasant radiance where her inner beauty lies in; at both edges of her mouth there lies sweet dimples one has to really observe its visibility; her hair is a little wavy at the back but mostly straight at the front, giving this softness look on it; she's quite sexy but I must say it is the appropriate sexiness that she displays - nothing is more or less. She loves kids. May as well one day be a great mom.
She is beloved by many. This is to say - family, friends, boys, girls - for her amazing joyousness she portrays in herself. The well-being of her upbringing emerged by way of directing herself towards fun, beautiful, nice things in life. As if she ignores and avoids the ugliness of this world and only takes up all the good, mostly sweet things into the palm of her hands.
Hm, well... That's enough. Think I should create a monstrous character to fight with the angel but, how come the sequence of a story has to be always like that? So sick of it! Will brainstorm that later.
For the time being, that above description really clouds my mind. Sometimes, it makes me think that life is beautiful.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Random Note
Diary...
*Sigh, sigh, sigh and more sighs!
I couldn't find a clue why still this brain wanted some kind of connection with her? Am I going mad? Hearken!
Don't wish to be eaten by such a dreary thought. It is scary. Fear me, yes. Still if she's not a ghost, why would she haunt my self-being? Do I want to befriend with her? I think, er, yes I do want it! Honestly, she's simply amazing. Why? Creativity is there. But at once, I should stop looking out for her. She's got a life, dude. She didn't bother you and yeah, why should I be bothered then, eh?
Anyways! Tomorrow (May 27th) is the convocation that I should supposedly be joining but well, but.. well, but.. well, I couldn't so I suppose I just have to attend my boyfriend's and taking Syida's advice into account to 'buat hati kering' will be surely done.
God, help me.
*Sigh, sigh, sigh and more sighs!
I couldn't find a clue why still this brain wanted some kind of connection with her? Am I going mad? Hearken!
Don't wish to be eaten by such a dreary thought. It is scary. Fear me, yes. Still if she's not a ghost, why would she haunt my self-being? Do I want to befriend with her? I think, er, yes I do want it! Honestly, she's simply amazing. Why? Creativity is there. But at once, I should stop looking out for her. She's got a life, dude. She didn't bother you and yeah, why should I be bothered then, eh?
Anyways! Tomorrow (May 27th) is the convocation that I should supposedly be joining but well, but.. well, but.. well, I couldn't so I suppose I just have to attend my boyfriend's and taking Syida's advice into account to 'buat hati kering' will be surely done.
God, help me.
Monday, May 17, 2010
A Crying Heart
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wonder how heart could cry? It has no eyes. It cannot shed any tear. But yet, yes, I believe the heart could cry. It can cry for a very long time and we are not able to wipe the heavily tears. That is why I would prefer eyes to cry. At least, I can clean it after it comes out and then smiles.
It is true - the above saying. I am put to think of why tears do not want to come out although my heart is as heavy as the black raining cloud? I would be back to normal after crying out. It's the relief which I am searching for. So, so difficult to find now. *Sigh*
I wish I could be the normal me who can easily cry when I am sad...
"The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea." ~Isak Dinesen
I need this cure!
The crying heart picture is credited to http://www.flickr.com/photos/15195261@N07/3999305215/.
Have you ever wonder how heart could cry? It has no eyes. It cannot shed any tear. But yet, yes, I believe the heart could cry. It can cry for a very long time and we are not able to wipe the heavily tears. That is why I would prefer eyes to cry. At least, I can clean it after it comes out and then smiles.
"The sorrow which has no vent in tears may make other organs weep." ~Henry Maudsley
It is true - the above saying. I am put to think of why tears do not want to come out although my heart is as heavy as the black raining cloud? I would be back to normal after crying out. It's the relief which I am searching for. So, so difficult to find now. *Sigh*
I wish I could be the normal me who can easily cry when I am sad...
"The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea." ~Isak Dinesen
I need this cure!
The crying heart picture is credited to http://www.flickr.com/photos/15195261@N07/3999305215/.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Be Puzzled
Diary,
Sometimes I am puzzled with love. How could love be so strong at one time and the next time around, love becomes so weak when things happen. Then, wouldn't it be hard to install things back as usual? Things that happen are such as betrayal, uncommon interests, etc.
Difficult and painful are the words to explain how hard it is to accept even any reasonable explanations towards bad things that happened on our way. Thus, what's left is how to deal it best, how to cope with our own unstable emotions. Fooling our mind insanely.
I seriously don't want to encounter such hard feelings with the man I love. Because to me, I don't need any other man than him. For my stupid attitudes that may make him sick of me, no one can better this. I'm still holding on. Towards any betterment of that. Although I know I'm not stupid as stupid does. I shall change this into a reality.
I love you.
Sometimes I am puzzled with love. How could love be so strong at one time and the next time around, love becomes so weak when things happen. Then, wouldn't it be hard to install things back as usual? Things that happen are such as betrayal, uncommon interests, etc.
Difficult and painful are the words to explain how hard it is to accept even any reasonable explanations towards bad things that happened on our way. Thus, what's left is how to deal it best, how to cope with our own unstable emotions. Fooling our mind insanely.
I seriously don't want to encounter such hard feelings with the man I love. Because to me, I don't need any other man than him. For my stupid attitudes that may make him sick of me, no one can better this. I'm still holding on. Towards any betterment of that. Although I know I'm not stupid as stupid does. I shall change this into a reality.
I love you.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Shoot Me Kill Me
Oh how am I going to burst this out? I think I am left with a bundle of ignorance by the others who play such those important roles to my self-function. Without those being unplaced, the abundance damned me.
Frankly saying, I'm now not in the eagerness of achieving my dreams. Or at least, a short term goal. As if I'm dragged hardly towards even thinking to be blossomed with good spirits. So tired facing people's conducts that are various. In the rightful way or the other way around. I'm so tired.
These sufferings without something to make me move are unbearable anymore. I can feel my heart is hanging at the edge of its stalk waiting to fall down at the base of my tummy. In short, I feel like it's screaming out loud due to the painful bearings. Cut my hand bleed, I think I won't feel any pain.
On this moment of being really low, seriously I need myself shut down. Or be shot.
Frankly saying, I'm now not in the eagerness of achieving my dreams. Or at least, a short term goal. As if I'm dragged hardly towards even thinking to be blossomed with good spirits. So tired facing people's conducts that are various. In the rightful way or the other way around. I'm so tired.
These sufferings without something to make me move are unbearable anymore. I can feel my heart is hanging at the edge of its stalk waiting to fall down at the base of my tummy. In short, I feel like it's screaming out loud due to the painful bearings. Cut my hand bleed, I think I won't feel any pain.
On this moment of being really low, seriously I need myself shut down. Or be shot.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Thought It Was Harder!
Hi Diary,
Since my mom went to Bali with Nida & Mimim, I was assigned to take care of the house, then. At the beginning, I was a bit reluctant to do so, because I thought that taking care of the cats, a paralyzed auntie, and cooking (sometimes) would be very much bothering. However, after 2 days doing it, it was not that bad as I earlier thought, hehe! Unexpectedly, I kind of enjoyed doing it, so far. Yes, Pichi my little brother is with me but unfortunately he has not been a helping hand. Yeah, normal boys' behavior, I guess. They just do the thing when they are forced to. In this case, I really have to be a fierce big sister to him. Therefore, I used the scolding method. lol! That would do fairly enough to a boy who only gives a damn to playing GTA and conquering the TV alone, all day long.
Plus, the thing that made me 'going on' & enjoying life at the moment is - the birth of Momi's kitten, of course! The kitten kind of, shone me 'the light' to my darkest nightmare, hehe! :p Thanks Snowy Kitty, I love ya!
Little kitty that has got no name yet.
So! Wish I could hold on longer until Wednesday!
Good girl to myself, haha.. :D
Since my mom went to Bali with Nida & Mimim, I was assigned to take care of the house, then. At the beginning, I was a bit reluctant to do so, because I thought that taking care of the cats, a paralyzed auntie, and cooking (sometimes) would be very much bothering. However, after 2 days doing it, it was not that bad as I earlier thought, hehe! Unexpectedly, I kind of enjoyed doing it, so far. Yes, Pichi my little brother is with me but unfortunately he has not been a helping hand. Yeah, normal boys' behavior, I guess. They just do the thing when they are forced to. In this case, I really have to be a fierce big sister to him. Therefore, I used the scolding method. lol! That would do fairly enough to a boy who only gives a damn to playing GTA and conquering the TV alone, all day long.
Plus, the thing that made me 'going on' & enjoying life at the moment is - the birth of Momi's kitten, of course! The kitten kind of, shone me 'the light' to my darkest nightmare, hehe! :p Thanks Snowy Kitty, I love ya!
Little kitty that has got no name yet.So! Wish I could hold on longer until Wednesday!
Good girl to myself, haha.. :D
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Mother's Love
A mother is not supposed to show favoritism to any of her children. That's what most of us would believe how a mother should react to upbring the children. Each of every child in siblings would have different personalities. Which would be great or worse in mother's eyes. Therefore, favoritism emerges out of the undivided love. But, I definitely don't believe this superstitious belief most people have in their mind. Why? Because it's not happened to me, in reality.
This is among the reasons why I was at first, kind of - reluctant to come back home for this semester break. Kind of satiated with all the situations I could foresee - with mother's extra attention to those significant ones. And, of course, the significant ones do not include me.
Although one might argue this undivided love from a mother, I myself couldn't help but feel the unfairness happens. It's so sick to just pretend like it's actually not so.
Only one thing I can prove that I also could appear better in my mother's eyes is through self-achievement. That's only through time - would help me rise on the surface.
Still, I'd remember without fail - the divided love between us to those who are my mother's favorites. I remember good.
This is among the reasons why I was at first, kind of - reluctant to come back home for this semester break. Kind of satiated with all the situations I could foresee - with mother's extra attention to those significant ones. And, of course, the significant ones do not include me.
Although one might argue this undivided love from a mother, I myself couldn't help but feel the unfairness happens. It's so sick to just pretend like it's actually not so.
Only one thing I can prove that I also could appear better in my mother's eyes is through self-achievement. That's only through time - would help me rise on the surface.
Still, I'd remember without fail - the divided love between us to those who are my mother's favorites. I remember good.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Delete or Not To Delete?
Diary,
I think I kind of hate Facebook. But I can't resist myself from checking into there more & more often every time - whenever I have the chance. Such a contradictory yes-and-no in between. Believe it or not, I've given it a thought over deleting my account, several times. Hmm... but, those comments my friends have had written over my wall and my pictures are deeply appreciated that I don't want to lose them! It's a sign, at least, they knew I'm existed. And there are funny comments that made me bursting out my laugh each time I went through reading it.
Admittedly, Facebook has given me many opportunities to meet up new friends as well! Not to be left out, those old school ex-classmates on which surely had me dropped out my jaw seeing at their changes over time - through photo-viewing, of course. It's the time to collect all those memories back from some lane to be remembered for some pictures. How memorable! And, new friends... Ahaha, I'm pretty tickled at how this social website could bring out the daring me, somehow. Not in a bad way, eh. Meeting a guy out of it? I couldn't even imagine that! Bahaha...
Off now!
Window-Shopping!
It has been long enough not to share any thoughts in here. It was because of the examinations which needed me to a full focus.Since it has gone, it left me with bundle of boredom now. Or shall I call it 'bundom'?
So!, I've done things that perfectly killed 'bundom' since then! Like just now, I went window-shopping at MidValley by myself which I enjoyed every second of it! Yeah, just a window-shopping because I didn't have the means to really shop, you know? How pity.. Anyway, it's OK since it's also a type of shopping. Haha. The joy of leisurely going alone is actually spending quality time with your own self. On daily basis, you are always occupied to busily treating the others with your own kindness. By becoming a loner of window-shopping/shopping, actually, it keeps your mind free from focusing to other people who need your attention. You let yourself relaxed and rejuvenated while allowing yourself to enter into any boutique/shop that you are not allowed to when you go to the mall with your boyfriend. Just my two cents' worth. No offend, but really girls, I know everyone feels just the same.
I've found way too many pretty stuffs today but managed to have only 2 or 3 garments. The cheap ones eh, but pretty things to my eyes.. Oh uh, I'm not really a shopaholic myself by posting this entry but I've to admit I really enjoy it! Who doesn't! Hopefully by this window-shopping, it generates self-spirit to study harder & smarter, get a better pay of salary and shop all I want! (This is to make window-shopping looks not particularly wrong to guys' eyes..) Haha! Brilliant.
Women & shopping cannot be separated, indeed.
Like Nadia & her window-shopping! Haha.
(The above picture is credited to southeasttennessee.com)
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Haunted Me
I just had sat the first paper yesterday & I didn't know whether I did OK or what. But I answered those longer - I mean, longer.
While revising last night, how I wanted to log in here so much & WRITE! Ideas were pouring like the rain. But now..
O diary.
Think now I'm really at my lowest self-confidence. I never expect pictures can really be that HAUNTED.
Indeed I'm scared!
While revising last night, how I wanted to log in here so much & WRITE! Ideas were pouring like the rain. But now..
O diary.
Think now I'm really at my lowest self-confidence. I never expect pictures can really be that HAUNTED.
Indeed I'm scared!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Unhappy Morning
It's stomachache, laziness, feeling dreadful, jealousy and why is there annoyance everywhere, today?
I woke up just now at 3 having determined to finish an essay - 5 long pages in length - but rather I ended up on YouTube. Treating myself with the goodness of live music - broadcast myself, na? I like it.
Despite that, I still have the strong will to finish the essay before its due this noon. Really at the eleventh hour of job, eh? Hope you don't mind. Who would?
Oow! The stomachache's coming again!
I woke up just now at 3 having determined to finish an essay - 5 long pages in length - but rather I ended up on YouTube. Treating myself with the goodness of live music - broadcast myself, na? I like it.
Despite that, I still have the strong will to finish the essay before its due this noon. Really at the eleventh hour of job, eh? Hope you don't mind. Who would?
Oow! The stomachache's coming again!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Killing Assignment!
Diary, I'm in the middle of doing this assignment - annotated bibliography. I was asked to find at least 5 sources for the topic "Social Effects of Globalization".
And then, each of the sources (journal articles, newspaper article, internet articles & so forth) I should recite it and yeah, OK with that.
After that, I've to write the annotations from which I've to scan those endless research papers for about 100-150 words long. In short, I've to summarize, paraphrase, do the main points identification & discuss its strengths and weaknesses.
I'm OK with the above instruction!
BUT, what I'm NOT OKAY is;
I've searched days ago the respective journals only to have found just now that those AREN'T the journals but rather the REVIEWS. No wonder mine were all so short like in two pages only! And yet I've started to feel happy about not having to spend extra dime on printing out those lengthy research reports! How sucks!
Now, right now!, where the submission is due tomorrow, I've only found the REAL journals that may contain as many as 80+ pages where money is concerned!
And how sucks is that to be annoyed while doing something I like with slight confusion of thinking beforehand.
And, sleepy is me for the moment. Too bad!
It kills my purse. And me.
And then, each of the sources (journal articles, newspaper article, internet articles & so forth) I should recite it and yeah, OK with that.
After that, I've to write the annotations from which I've to scan those endless research papers for about 100-150 words long. In short, I've to summarize, paraphrase, do the main points identification & discuss its strengths and weaknesses.
I'm OK with the above instruction!
BUT, what I'm NOT OKAY is;
I've searched days ago the respective journals only to have found just now that those AREN'T the journals but rather the REVIEWS. No wonder mine were all so short like in two pages only! And yet I've started to feel happy about not having to spend extra dime on printing out those lengthy research reports! How sucks!
Now, right now!, where the submission is due tomorrow, I've only found the REAL journals that may contain as many as 80+ pages where money is concerned!
And how sucks is that to be annoyed while doing something I like with slight confusion of thinking beforehand.
And, sleepy is me for the moment. Too bad!
It kills my purse. And me.
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