Guilt That Comes Together

Dear D,

Right after coming back from Uptown Shah Alam for dinner, Mimim urged me to drive her to the place where she saw a little white kitten before we headed dining earlier. Reaching there, indeed the same kitten still remained at the same spot as if it hadn't moved at all since then. Mimim asked me whether she could pick it up back home. Well, that is where guilt came into myself as I was counting of its pros and cons of bringing that little poor thing home.

Well D, it's either bringing it home or not bringing it home, I do think in both ways it comes with the good & the bad. So, if it is chosen to bring it home, I believe sooner or later, she would abandon it because Mimim stays in the hostel - where having pets is absolutely not allowed. Later, she'd leave it under my care. Which; I refused to because I live in with my other flatmates thus certain guidelines should be given a damn on. Moreover, I already have 2 cats whom my bf takes care of them on my behalf.

Whereas not to bring it home, invites uneasiness towards Mimim and also a bit part of me because leaving it out there surrounded by the cold night - just imagine! - at night, if the blankets of ours aren't covering our feet, we'd be trembling in cold. What more of a kitten! But then, to decide taking part of which is one is rather hard. Guilt comes when we are to be or not to be.

Since Mimim couldn't control her emotion, weeping while I gave her a reasonable explanation, so my suggestion was that to feed the kitten there while we both could and at least, tonight its stomach was saved. Tomorrow, we'll look out for it again to feed it.

Out of that decision of mine, I do believe that kitten has its mommy which is called 'Kiah' by guards of my residence and because Kiah is a white adult cat so no doubt that kitten is hers. And, to be growing that a little big of a kitten, it must be breastfed by Kiah or else by now, it might be dying or were really thin and small.

The thing is, any stray cats which me or my siblings bump into will come in a package of this huge guilt. Because the responsibility is huge to raise a kitten. Even I was kind of giving up in taking care of Minyu and Salem. But it has its own reasons why. If only I own my own house, kittens I've found on the streets will be my personal belongings. But what more could be done, I'm helpless to provide a shelter of those stray cats. Poor thing!

I dream of building up cats and dogs' shelter if I were a millionaire.
or at least if I have extra money.

Remember, stray cats & dogs - they also have souls.

Like us.
The pain might just feel the same.