Faithfulness

Diary,

Oscar Wilde, once, is quoted to say "Those who faithless know the pleasures of love; it is the faithful know love's tragedies." It's true.

If I were to be faithful all my life, it is like an attempt to hurt myself. Doesn't it so? As to the contrary, if I were to be faithless, I attempted myself to feel the love as much as I could. So, which one would I choose to be?

I always think, it is going to be painful when being betrayed by someone in whom you pour all your love into. This made me think deeper. Of any consequence of any chance if I were in the same shoes as those who have experienced being betrayed. I could go crazy, I swear! Although, the extremeness in me now is a bit alleviated nowadays, but, I can imagine when the people I love being extremely such a harm to me, it'd re-install its phase in within. I could be as crazy as crazy does.

All happenings that people all around me are facing gave me some space and time to re-think what have I done so far in ruining my harmony kind of life. People often say 'Expect the unexpected' but the truth is, we are often being in the 'unexpected' moments not realizing whether it will happen or not. Simply, most of us just do not care of these expectations. We live accordingly. We just follow the flow. It's like a river. We just flow forward and forward but not backwards. Oh why!

God is trying to show me something by all the happenings, really. Thank God you've made me stop & think of ruining further my life.

I do really hope some who feel troubled over certain issues could settle down and relax, to be cool and to lay back, to be strong and to have a little patience each time, and mainly the tests He put on you has its own purpose to transform a much better person than you are now.

People is getting inspired from many experiences that the others are experiencing - the good and the bad. And it is a good thing to get inspired to avoid negative things. But to me, though the nature is so, I never enjoy seeing people all around me getting hurt and harmed by what they're experiencing, especially when it is bad. I feel terrible actually to learn this cruel fact in life of getting inspirations out of tragedies, it is somewhat not cool, eh Diary?

Until now Diary.
I do think a lot, lately.